I imagine we are all feeling incongruent these days. I think it is one of the things that throws me off the most.
We have all this time we weren’t counting on, but we can’t use it to travel, visit family, or shop for projects. More free time. Less freedom.
I can have a moment of life or death panic for my kids after watching the news, and then five minutes later, I am scolding them for something ridiculous. I am both praying for friends with scary symptoms while scrolling through hysterical memes on Facebook. (People are just so clever!)
This week has me especially off balance.
They are saying it could be the worst two weeks. The Peak. It is also when the novelty of school…and stores… and movies… and hang outs…and church being cancelled seems to have worn off for the girls. Just when we should “lock the doors and pull down the shades” they have decided they can’t stand it any more.
But stand it we must.
Just this week I had a flashback to when the tsunami hit in 2004. All we could do was watch in horror. Seriously, while it happened, that was all we could do. Sure we could send money and help in the aftermath…but in the moment, nothing. There was something about it that just haunted me.
I feel a bit that way now when NYC is on the news.
With just 90 miles separating us from the surreal footage of New York City I feel like I am holding my breath. Waiting to see if the waves are here. They say they are approaching. With so many friends and family, including my own daughter, working in healthcare I just want to scream “run”! But I know they will stay.
Just like we will stay.
Incongruent. Tomorrow we will make some Easter crafts, take a drive to wave at friends and Facetime one or two more. We will celebrate a God-daughter’s birthday, virtually. Birthdays still happen, holidays are still waiting to be celebrated and friendships still need tending to. All while some family and friends work their hardest to save lives. May God help us all.
I am praying you all stay safe and strong and life will have a sense of balance once again. How are you managing this time?
thank you for sharing your feelings. things that are out of our control. thankful that God is God and He is still in control. thankful that He never changes. He is our constant. provider, protector. my future daughter in law is also on the front lines as a nurse at Reading Hospital. my oldest son is still going to work at his job for a trucking company where they deliver supplies/groceries to the Epicenter (NY) and also to NJ. Drivers have been diagnosed with COVID19. The closer it hits towards home the reality that this virus is real. I have been social distancing; going out of the house to walk across the street to get the mail is a highlight. Walk the dog. I’ll venture out to CVS and to the grocery store…it was becoming my own comedy hour when I would walk to the paper products aisle and find it completely empty. No paper towels, no toilet paper. No cleaning wipes. And no hand sanitizer. I just had to laugh to myself. I recently came across a 4 roll pack of toilet paper at CVS. I happily took it off the shelf. I’ll take the value buy. No matter the brand.
I’ve been patronizing local restaurants with curbside only pick-up. This is helping me to stay sane in this time of social distancing. Sending notes/cards in the mail to others letting them know I’m thinking about them.
I hope you all are still healthy!! We look forward to take-out now days, too!