I imagine we are all feeling incongruent these days. I think it is one of the things that throws me off the most.
We have all this time we weren’t counting on, but we can’t use it to travel, visit family, or shop for projects. More free time. Less freedom.
I can have a moment of life or death panic for my kids after watching the news, and then five minutes later, I am scolding them for something ridiculous. I am both praying for friends with scary symptoms while scrolling through hysterical memes on Facebook. (People are just so clever!)
This week has me especially off balance.
They are saying it could be the worst two weeks. The Peak. It is also when the novelty of school…and stores… and movies… and hang outs…and church being cancelled seems to have worn off for the girls. Just when we should “lock the doors and pull down the shades” they have decided they can’t stand it any more.
But stand it we must.
Just this week I had a flashback to when the tsunami hit in 2004. All we could do was watch in horror. Seriously, while it happened, that was all we could do. Sure we could send money and help in the aftermath…but in the moment, nothing. There was something about it that just haunted me.
I feel a bit that way now when NYC is on the news.
With just 90 miles separating us from the surreal footage of New York City I feel like I am holding my breath. Waiting to see if the waves are here. They say they are approaching. With so many friends and family, including my own daughter, working in healthcare I just want to scream “run”! But I know they will stay.
Just like we will stay.
Incongruent. Tomorrow we will make some Easter crafts, take a drive to wave at friends and Facetime one or two more. We will celebrate a God-daughter’s birthday, virtually. Birthdays still happen, holidays are still waiting to be celebrated and friendships still need tending to. All while some family and friends work their hardest to save lives. May God help us all.
I am praying you all stay safe and strong and life will have a sense of balance once again. How are you managing this time?