Archives for April 2019

Sometimes when I ask my daughter a question about how she feels about something she will reply “Both”. I don’t remember when she started using that word as an answer, but I do recall that I understood her sentiment immediately. It became her way of saying that she had mixed feelings...that the answer wasn’t so black and white. She could have feelings both positive and negative at the same time. Perhaps this explains why I can’t seem to get past the lyrics from “When I survey the wondrous cross” that we sang during Palm Sunday service. The Mingled  feelings of love and sorrow. It seems like a life theme...especially when journeying with disabilities. Yesterday, as I watched the Notre Dame cathedral fire, I was reminded of the day I began to finally understand how two opposite feelings can live together in my heart. Specifically Joy and Suffering. It was on September 11 as I watched the twin towers burn and fall. Everything felt eerie and I was already overwhelmed caring for twin babies with cerebral palsy, but I wasn’t scared. I realized then that the difficult, sometimes Continue Reading